The Stranger: The End

The book is now finishing and really i feel frustrated because of the main character. As i said in my more recent blog, i really thought that Monsieur Meursault was starting to change in a way were he´d start caring for others, from now on. This is were i notice a very rare characteristic in Meursault. He would start expressing his feelings from the moment he realized to the future but never would he look to the past regreting anything so this might be a false way of showing his feelings and really not regreting anything.
As soon as he knows that he will be murdered by choping his head off, i realized and fet that there was kind of a temerous feeling inside him and really i think is completely human to feel it, even Meursault. ''That is why I ended up sleeping only a little bit...the hardest time was the uncertain hour when I knew they they usually set to work''(pg.113). He starts to feel a lot od fear and suddenly he realizes that it is completely normal to feel the way he is feeling. '' I remember feeling a little disgusted by him at that time. But now I understood, it was perfectly normal"( Pg.110). This is were I see what Meursault does in the entire book, he soes it again. He does not want anybody to see that he is nervous and frightened so he seems not to care about his death sentence but im sure he does care. It is typical of him to do that. This i can relate it not with death presently because sentence of death is not that common now a days but people are frightened of losing there jobs, loves etc... and for them not to look "small" the trust completely in their pride and really think that would take them some place. At the final moment of his life he realizes that he doesnt know himself at all but only wishes that some people might get happy with his death. "I felt ready to live it all again too. As of that blind rage has washed me clean, rid of me of hope; for the first time, in that night alive with signs and stars, I opened myself to the gentle indifferece of the world. Finding it so much like myself, so like a brother, really, I felt that I had been happy and that I was happy again."(Pg.122-123.)Cruedly this is how the book the stranger ends, sombody hoping that their murder might make happy other lives.